S0ullessness

I just want to thank those of you who helped me out after my previous journal entry. I actually feel kind of lame 'cause it was sort of worded in a less than mature manner. I was basically struggling to fit myself into specific society boxes and that's just not me - So I'm somewhat ashamed of how I've been acting. Though I received some great advice from you guys and it really helped bring me back to planet earth. I'm just me. I'm complex. And that's okay.

I'm at a point in my life (and have been for a long time) where I'm struggling to find out who and what I really am. Am I a boy? Am I a girl? Am I something in between? Am I straight? Am I gay? Am I Pansexual? Etc. I couldn't care less of what other people think of me so that's not the issue--but I'm lost. My feelings change on a daily basis, sometimes even more often than that. It's pretty crazy up in my head nowadays. And all this searching is really starting to get to me. I've started a habit I told myself I would never start. I'm smoking. And I know a lot of people do it and it's a "whatever" situation for most people but it was somethin

Italy. I missed you.